I am lonely, yet not everybody will do. I don’t know why, some people fill the gaps and others emphasize my loneliness. In reality those who satisfy me are those who simply allow me to live with my ”idea of them.
Anaïs Nin(Source: aeete, via czas)
i wonder my dad’s reaction if ever… :)
i just love the song and the lyrics. yeah, i’m a hopeless romantic. :)
<3 <3 <3
for my fortress and strength
for being one of my reasons and inspiration
for my first love and forever he will be
for my knight in shining armor
…happy birthday dad! i love you with all my heart. you are indeed one of the wonderful and greatest gifts GOD has given me. :)
“you take more than just my sanity
you take my reason not to care.
no ordinary wings i need
the sky itself will carry me
…back to you.” :)
“you take more than just my sanity
you take my reason not to care.
no ordinary wings i need
the sky itself will carry me
…back to you.” :)
I like flaws. I think they make things interesting.
Sarah Dessen (The Truth about Forever)(Source: kari-shma, via quote-book)
My Relationship with My Mother
I don’t not consider myself as a mommy’s girl. I always thought that I am a daddy’s girl and that I am my grandparent’s favorite girl. My dad favors me a lot even when I was young. And my grandparents (on my father’s side) being their first-born “apo” always have this EXTRA LOVE for me. But what I want to share is my relationship with my mom.
Growing up, I remember my mom as typical housewife. She actually graduate from a Midwife Course but give up his career in hospitals to be a full time mother and a wife. She just build up her own lying-in clinic beside our house to have an extra income and to help my father for our daily expenses. So whenever she don’t have patients she was busy doing household chores; preparing the things that we needed. She loves to read during her free time, listen to old songs and sometimes write to her sister who works abroad. She also loves to watch television. She loves those teledramas, and get affected whenever each character say something touching. She has side comments that add up her viewing more exciting. I love looking at her and saw tears from her eyes with a sob. She always say: “Ano ba naman kasing bida yan, napakamartir”. And it makes me smile.
Because she’s always in our house, she has lot of time to take care of me and my brothers. She’s in charge of everything. She cooks our meals, prepare our clothes, helping with our school homeworks and projects.
There’s no perfect mother. When I was young, I envy my classmates saying that they found their best friends through their mom. That they have the cool mother ever. That they can share everything as in everything under the sun with their mom. I don’t have that kind of mom. I know my mom as strict, always questioned me and my decisions. She nags, say something bad about you and even don’t care on what you feel. That’s what I thought of her.
But I have a perfect mother. She is always there for me. Never left me and the whole family alone. Always give me the best advise ever. She has instinct with person whom she thinks will hurt you or will be your good companion. And I’m starting to trust her instinct that before I doubted. Lately, I feel that she really loves me. She fights for me. She’s my fortress and my strength. And she will not allow anyone to hurt me.
We are not use to hug. To kiss. And to say I love you every day. But in our hearts we know that its beating with same feeling towards one another. That the fire of love for each other is so intense. That we are willing to sacrifice just to make each other happy. Just for the other to live. My mom is my best friend. She is one of the most wonderful gifts God have given me. And I’m proud that she is mother.
To mom, I love you with all my heart. I am proud to be your daughter.
-glee-
March 2, 2011
two of my ka-ART-tehan. :)
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It seems that I woke up at the wrong side of the bed. I don’t know. I am blue. I’m feeling the stress and I’m tired of my daily routine. Plus I need to get up 30 minutes earlier than the usual. Suddenly i feel the sadness. Well, maybe, being a bipolar me, I am on my lowest point, my depression mode, can’t think right, positivity gone, hope fails and that my defenses are weak.
But thank God that He lights everything for me. I thank Him for the music, for the GOOD NEWS that I read in the bible, for allowing me to see a beautiful sight outside my office’s window (*picture posted above*) and for wonderful people surrounding me. Well, I’m back… back to my MANIC mode. :)
“Simula ng makilala ko si Jesus Christ (My Savior), doon ko lang nalaman ang sagot sa tanong ng Nescafe Commercial…
..Para kanino ka bumabangon?”
LIVE Life for JESUS. :) I’m living for My Savior. :)
**credit to Mark. Thank you. :)